I lost my 20 months here without knowing how much I could enjoy my loneliness during 4 years...I feel so sorry about that but decide to appreciate the rest of my loneliness within freedom.for the beginning I took a long lazy shower for 2 hours.I sat under water quite quiet and still.Just felt the drops on my skin...it was really fun.I gonna repeat this joyful experience again and again during my last 12 months here,cause I know I never could do this  back home...for sake of my father,economy,and so many other reasons...thanks god to fiind a way freeing myself from killing thoughts.It was really amasing to see how come my thoughts faded away as soon as they come to my mind.I remembered how to  think without thinking.I wanna be with you...sorry this was an interruption by Enrique"s song