I feel I lost my last leaf...I am tired of waiting,tired of thinking,tired of waking up every damn morning...god I want to turn loose my hold on every thing,and go sailing down and down and down just like one of those poor tired leaves...I lost my very last leaf

I cant beleive this is me,sitting in the dirty classes ful of dust and mess and dead grasshopperswith some other insect marching everywhere all the time and some times climb up from my legs...Oh GOD is this really me